Do you want to know what is it like to deal with
eating disorders? Then read this interview. We talked to a 22-year old sales
school student who enjoys playing in cuddling with animals (any kind, any
time), watching series and drawing. Her struggle with eating disorders started
in 2012, when she was 15. After 7 years her condition is much better, although
her battle is not completely over, yet. According to the American Psychological
Association (2017) eating disorders are characterised by severe disturbances in
eating behaviours and related thoughts and emotions. People with eating
disorders typically become pre-occupied with food and their body weight. Keep
reading if you are interested in her answers.
- How would you
describe your mental disorder?
It’s sometimes like you don’t want to eat although
your body needs the food, other times it’s like you know you have to eat but
your body doesn’t let you. For every meal you struggle and fight before, after
and/or in between.
- Are you or were you
in treatment for your disorder?
Yes, I was in treatment with a psychologist for a bit
less than a year in 2014, but I’m now done with that.
- How has living with
the condition shaped who you are today?
In a way it makes you stronger, because now I know
what my weakness is and I can fight it more easily, in another way it destroyed
my digestion.
- In what way did your
disorder have the biggest influence/impact on your life?
The biggest effect was,
and still is, that food controls my life. I love food, but it is also my enemy
in a way.
- What was your opinion
about yourself in the beginning of the disorder and now?
I thought I was fat and ugly, although others didn’t
see me as such. And I felt like I didn’t deserve to eat. Why would you waste
food on me? But now I don’t feel like I’m fat, although there are still times
when I think I should lose some weight.
- What would you like
the world to know regarding mental disorders?
Even though it’s true that they are in our heads it
doesn’t mean they aren’t real. They are and many people still don’t understand
that.
- What kind of reaction
do you normally get from people if you tell them about your mental
disorder?
I didn’t really get questions regarding my eating
disorders, so I never really had to talk about them and, therefore, didn’t get
any reactions.
- In case you had to
tell someone, what reaction would you like to get?
I don’t think I want or wanted a reaction, because
anything anyone would say would encourage me to proceed with what I was doing
or trigger a defensive reaction.
- How does or did the
disorder affect your close personal relationships?
With not enough nutrients and energy you freak out about
almost everything, no matter how important it really is, so there are a lot of
problems with family members, but it didn’t really affect my friendships.
- How could people help
you?
They could help me by not forcing me to eat and by
understanding that if I don’t eat for a day it doesn’t mean I’ll relapse.
- What helped you the
most?
I think what helped me most was knowing I had people
around me, that they supported me. So yeah, knowing I had support was really
the best help.
- Would you like to add
anything else?
Yes, I would like to add that not only skinny people
can have an eating disorder, overweight people can have it just as well,
although most people don’t believe this.
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