Hi there. I am a 22 year
old student finishing my Bachelor degree. In my free time I like to read,
write, watch movies, hike in the nature and take photos. I also like to spend
time with my friends and family, probably just like you. If I had to point out something,
that makes me different from most of you, I'd probably mention I am suffering
from panic disorder. Panic disorder is characterized by reoccuring panic
attacks, which are periods of intense fear
that include somatic symptoms, like shortness of breath, palpitations etc. They
lead to different behavioral and cognitive outcomes, such as avoidance of
places associated with one of the attacks. In this interview, psychology
students from EFPSA's Social Impact Initiative explored how life with this condition
is like for me, and if you want to know more, you're most welcome to read it.
. How would you (figuratively) describe your mental disorder?
I would describe it as a
ghost that starts strangling you out of the blue and disappears after it had
its fun.
Are you
in treatment for your disorder?
I'm
in treatment.
How has
living with the condition shaped who you are today?
Hasn't
really.
In what
way did your disorder have the biggest influence/impact on your life?
My
life satisfaction has decreased. I often don't see the point of suffering every
day.
What
would you like the world to know regarding mental disorders?
That stigmatization feels
horrible. A person living with a mental disorder like mine has to battle themselves
every day, which isn't easy. You feel as if your body is betraying your soul,
or vice versa, since it's the mind that brings the body down to its knees. To
sum up, it takes a lot of effort for you to get better. If you perceive that
others view you as very different, »broken« even, it's a huge additional load
to handle. We just need understanding and acceptance.
What
would help you in your situation right now the most?
If
I could take a break from current life for recovery time and finding meaning of
life again.
What
kind of reaction do you normally get from people if you tell them about your
mental disorder?
Uff,
I'm very stressed too. You need just to
relax, and everything will be better.
What
reaction would you like to get?
That somebody says I
shouldn't be ashamed of myself and I shouldn't be afraid of saying if there is
anything they can do for me.
How
does the disorder affect your close personal relationships?
Everyone wants to help,
but often they start blaming me – that I'm the one to blame for my disorder or
they start minimizing my problems or interpreting it from their own point of
view and that hurts me a lot. However I wouldn't say the dynamics of my close
relationships has changed a lot.
Do you
feel reduced to your mental disorder when you talk to people?
Rarely. Surprisingly, I
had that feeling the most while telling some doctors or other medical staff
about my disorder, which was an unpleasant surprise.
What
would be the question that you would like to be asked by others?
Are
you ok? Describe how you really feel!
How
could people help you?
If you truly want to
help a person with a mental disorder, get to know their condition. You can help
most by being aware of the condition and more understanding. By
knowing what helps and what doesn't – because a lot of people say things that
don't really help with the best intentions. But, as Madonna puts it – the road
to hell is paved with good intentions.
What is
your favourite book about mental health / psychology or in general?
A thousand splendid suns
by Khaled Hosseini.
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